Nick Kyrgios on self-harm, drugs, Australian Open, girlfriend Costen Hatzi, Thanasi Kokkinakis
Nick Kyrgios says his life “spinned out of control” before the forced pandemic reset allowed him to develop a healthier lifestyle and mend his relationship with his family.
The Canberra tennis prodigy, who has previously admitted to self-harm and having suicidal thoughts, says Vast world of sports that in the years leading up to 2020 he “didn’t communicate” and turned to drugs and alcohol to deal with his demons.
“It was very serious, right down to self-harm and that’s not OK,” he said. “I guess I pushed away everyone who cared about me and wasn’t communicating, and I just shut down real life and tried to deal with and solve my issues head-on.
“I was abusing a lot of alcohol, drugs and it got out of control. Now I barely drink – I literally drink a glass of wine at dinner. It was the initial kind of stuff that I had to clean up a bit and then rebuilding my relationship with my family and getting into healthier habits like the basics like dieting, sleeping well, trying to work out a bit more and that’s it I think COVID has helped me a lot with that.
The 27-year-old, who won the Australian Open doubles title this year alongside compatriot Thanasi Kokkinakis, has long confessed to a love-hate relationship with the sport and says he doesn’t didn’t like meeting people who “really didn’t care who I was as a human being, more like just a tennis player…the crazy tennis player”.
“I felt like I was letting people down all the time,” he said. “I felt worthless to be honest, I didn’t feel comfortable, I hated my life at one point.
“I was cutting, burning, just pretty fucked up shit. It was so dark that I liked it too, like asking people to do it and all that. What doesn’t kill you makes you a stranger (and stronger). I’m still a little cooked.
He credits the Melbourne Park Major, as well as his new girlfriend Costen Hatzi, with a change in his mindset. It was at the 2020 Australian Open that Kyrgios was instrumental in raising tens of thousands for bushfire relief and was also part of a march to the fourth round that didn’t end. been interrupted only by Rafael Nadal. Even then, the current champion and world No. 1 needed four sets and two tie-breaks to do so.